I leave Cornwall today and head up to Wiltshire to see and stay with Liz and family for the next few days. I am sad to leave, but also my intention is that it is temporary, and that I will be back for several months next summer. I have wondered if I am rushing it, leaving before the Solstice, but every time I check in around that, I know that I have been here for the perfect amount of time. 18 days. That's actually a long time to be anywhere that is not home. But this is home. And while I may not have been in one place in Cornwall, I spent my most time in this area, and now know that this truly is the area where I want to settle. The one area that I haven't explored or walked is between here, and the sea at Fowey. Mmmmm...I must do that!
I could walk the Saints Path between here and there. I just saw myself leading groups on the Saints Path, as well as on the western portion of the Mary Michael Way! Love this. Thank you.
Am I complete?
Giving myself yesterday to write, exploring my thoughts, awarenesses and downloads through writing, and I wrote for nearly 6 hours - yes!
Making pots of tea and drinking cups of tea while I wrote - yes!
Loving the rhythm of spending the morning writing and drinking tea - yes!
Getting to walk into town on a sunny afternoon and get a cappaccino and a cheese scone at Duchy - yes!
Getting to connect with, and say thank you to Ricky both by phone and then in person as I walked back up the hill to my lovely home, Heaven on Earth - yes!
Staying at "Heaven on Earth" for these past 2 nights - yes!
Sitting in the sunny garden while I facetimed Gracie -yes!
Choosing to walk a very short distance over to the Golf Club to eat dinner of fish and chips, along with a Rattler cider - yes!
Thoroughly enjoying the clear and sunny view across the valley of Restormel, and also while the sun set - yes!
(This view was the opposite of my view of home 31 years ago. I now was sitting in the view that I had seen! Even the other day, I noticed something driving up a field quite quickly and then figured out that it was a golf course and that was a golf cart zipping up the hill, and then here I am, staying just next door to the Lostwithiel Golf & Country Club, in the extra room of the couple who owned and ran the hotel and club for the past 15 or so years. Something quite auspicious about all of this.)
Getting to truly be on my own these past few days and really, really enjoying myself, how I choose to spend my time, how I choose to eat, my rhythm, where I choose to stay, how I take care of myself (even in not getting the early 8 o'clock train to Liskeard, but giving myelf a longer morning here to get showered, packed, write, and eat breakfast -I don't feel rushed) - yes!
Having the experience of being comfortable in my own skin and body - yes!
Coming home to myself, my dreams and desires - yes!
Being at peace with myself, my dreams and desires, my path - yes!
Accepting, allowing myself and all of who I am - yes!
Enjoying OM time last night with myself - yes!
Fulfilling my intention for walking in Cornwall --- yes!
Experiencing a profound healing of the split through and in sacred wedding and union of the sacred feminine and divine masculine - yes!
Now moving into the marriage and the longterm work of the marriage,bringing the sacred union home and allowing it to infuse and inform me every second of every day so that I live into it, from it, through it, as it.
I am SACRED UNION IN BODY, THOUGHT AND ACTION. Everything about who I am, what I choose, what I create, my actions, words, thoughts and feelings are aligned with, connected to, rooted in, expressed through SACRED UNION, LOVE, LIGHT AND LIFE.
I now live in, embody, embrace and express the &, the "both/and".
I am whole.
I am home.
I am complete.
I give thanks. I give thanks. I give thanks.
And so it is. And so I am.
I just have to add an addendum to reveal the cosmic humor of it all. Lostwithiel. In English, it sounds like "lost" - yet here I have found myself.
And actually, Lostwithiel is Cornish "Lost Gwydyel" - the place at the tail-end of the forest."
Yes it is. And here I am.
And, Anita just came with milk for myself. She was wearing the most beautiful silver spiral on her necklace, with a gorgeous deep pink stone in the middle and made in Wadebridge.