TODAY I CELEBRATE! I have honored my 100 Day Commitment EVERY SINGLE DAY of the 100 days and have exercised and done something to move, love, enjoy, feel my body!
I am amazed, quite honestly! When I first saw this challenge on Facebook, as much as I intuitively knew that I had to do it, I also wondered how I would ever make the time, remember, get over my resistance. I was like, "Yeah. Right." So I took it one day at a time, with the 100 days as my goal or vision in site all the time.
Honestly, it was like the whole Universe conspired for me to do this and take this on! I could feel the groundswell of support as I stepped into the powerful Commitment to Self.
On Day 1, I went to a Fitness for Life class, and I have gone back nearly every Monday, Wednesday and Friday since. Why? Because the teacher of this class, Jennifer, has been one of my angels since that very first day. She welcomed me in, asked what she needed to know about me in terms of exercising, and has just so supported me every step of the way! It felt like she just invited me in more deeply to myself, and gave my resistance nothing to fight with!
I have gone to this Fitness for Life class, but another similar one at a different time. I have gone to a NIA class, an Ayre dance class, I have used the "Fitness over 50" dvd's. I have gone to Pilates with Helen. I have sprinkled in with stretching, a Fit Ball, a little yoga. Every day for 100 days I have moved, loved, stretched, toned and strengthened my body.
Years ago, I created with my dear friend Sue the acronym of HFTTFS.
HEALTHY ~ FIT ~ TRIM ~ TONED ~ FLEXIBLE ~ STRONG.
I am now living into and from that vision of my body being HFTTFS! WooHoo!
What are the gifts from my taking on the 100 Commitment?
- confidence - I now know that I can exercise, that I can commit to something seemingly impossible and do it! I can no longer use my body, or being weak as an excuse. I get to, have to show up now differently than I ever have
- strength - you can feel the toned and strengthened muscles in my legs and arms
no excuses - it's all about commitment, clarity, focus, and honoring your intuition. I can do many exercises now that at the beginning, Jennifer wouldn't even have me do! I can feel the muscles in more trunk now...they're engaged, they're firing, they're working!- intuition - when you are directed or impulsed by Spirit through your intuition, listen to it, honor it, do it! The picture is always so much bigger than you think it is, and so the magic, and the miracles are more than you ever imagined also!
- weaving of the split - the 24 year old physical split in my abdominal recti muscles is healing and being healed. It is now healed up almost to belly button, and coming down from my sternum.
Healing the physical split is mirroring the healing of the energetic split within that has been there since I was a young girl, perhaps I even came in with it. This dyanamic of a split is a big part of my soul's purpose - I came to heal the split I have experienced on every level of my being - spirit/matter; mind/body; England/America; creative/intellect; masculine/feminine; internal/external; home centered/out in the world; inner/outer...I could go on and on.
This 100 Day Commitment has been a unifier for me and has served to bring together and integrate the polarities within me. While supporting the healing of the split, it has simultaneously been bringing together these aspects of myself that have been at war with each other. Somehow, they are now working in concert together and recognizing the mutuality of their co-existence.
WHOLENESS
- connection to my core - I know that I am just getting started on truly touching my core. It's as though it's taken me 100 days to come into the core of things!! And if you'd ever told me it would take this long, and that I am really only just getting started, I'm not sure I would have ever started (which brings us back to the wisdom of Spirit and guiding us through our intuition!) This 100 day practice has been a foundation creator and builder.
- foundation - I now have the strength and the foundation to go into my core and to do the core work! ha!
- Self - a recognition that I actually have a Self, and that with this, comes an acceptance of certain degree of "selfishness" or self-centeredness. WOW! One of my shadows has been "Selfish" and so I have worked endlessly to NOT be selfish or self-centered in any way. Hence, no core, no center. I have come into an acceptance of Self and this demands a certain level of selfish, self-centeredness. Many times I had to remove myself from the family and inconvenience them, and myself, to exercise that day. And you know, it was okay. There was nothing wrong, no harm done, by my taking care of myself. Fancy that?!
- container - I can physically, and emotionally - feel that my body can now serve me and our path together because it can now provide a container for our work together. We are working together now! Before my body always felt like a sieve that energy leaked through, so I'd always be trying to do what I needed to do behind my body's back almost. I didn't know how to work in partnership with my body.
- partnership - working together with my body on this journey we're on. Loving and appreciating its strength, its form, its perfection, and its wisdom.
- self-love, self-appreciation and self-acceptance - I am developing and deepening a love for myself and my body. I actually am coming into a deep acceptance of myself, my Self, my gifts, my purpose, and my mission. Funny right?! Never would have expected that this 100 Day Commitment would give me these gifts! What a blessing!
- anchoring - I am coming in and home to myself, my core, my Self in a quiet, powerful, undramatic way. It's like I'm experiencing my self in a new way. It just is. I just am. As I type this, big deep relaxing breath. I am.
- creativity and manifestation - I am becoming a powerful and potent creative manifestor, and I am able to ride the waves of manifestation in a new, embodied, present way. I am recognizing and accepting myself as a profoundly creative person for the first time. I am accepting who I am as a magnificent manifestor too!
- EMBODIMENT - Wow! I am embodying EMBODIMENT! My theme for 2014 - Embodiment! I truly believe that it was my taking on and accepting this theme for this year that actually aligned me with the 100 Commitment. It was the original spark. And here we are, I am, 100 days later, and I am more in my body, in my being, on my path, than I have ever been. I am so profoundly humbled and grateful.
- weaving of the split - the 24 year old physical split in my abdominal recti muscles is healing and being healed. It is now healed up almost to belly button, and coming down from my sternum.
- intuition - when you are directed or impulsed by Spirit through your intuition, listen to it, honor it, do it! The picture is always so much bigger than you think it is, and so the magic, and the miracles are more than you ever imagined also!
- strength - you can feel the toned and strengthened muscles in my legs and arms
Solvitur Ambulando!