I feel as though I am coming out of a long, dark tunnel. It's now Wednesday evening and I am just starting to feel better for the first time since Saturday evening. What a journey! I woke in tears last night, threw up one more time, and felt so much pain in my stomach.
I have been asking myself, "what am I not able to stomach?" And I realized this evening, in participating in Marianne Williamson's The Alignment of Body and Soul class that there is a point at which I separate from Spirit and do not believe that I can trust Spirit to do the work through me. So, I take over, and start generating what I think should happen. I miss the moment of opportunity to allow Spirit to work though me.
This is what I can no longer stomach. This is what no longer works. Choosing fear when I can choose love. Every time, I make this choice, it only limits what I create and actually takes it out of alignment with divine source.
This is what I wrote after the class:
Marianne said, "God is doing the work through you - it is not generated by you." That opened up something for me. I think that I always have to be the one generating and making it happen. It may be what I think it is alignment with God's will, but still, I do the generating. This is where I separate from God, out a lot of pressure on my body, and don't trust. Wow! And I imagine, that this may be where I separate from my body, don't trust or like it, judge it, and feel like I have to work really hard to do anything, including lose weight, exercise, and not feel shame. What if it really is all about "going for God" and releasing the separation?!!! And knowing that I can send God ahead of me!
I am wondering if this is the same moment I separate from the flow of wealth and abundance in the Universe and the Earth…
Any where and everywhere that I feel that I have to be in charge and make it happen, generate the results I am looking for, am I willing to uncreate and destroy? Yes, I am. RWGBPPA9SB&B. That's the abbreviation for the clearing statement from www.accessconsciousness.com
I have been asking myself, "what am I not able to stomach?" And I realized this evening, in participating in Marianne Williamson's The Alignment of Body and Soul class that there is a point at which I separate from Spirit and do not believe that I can trust Spirit to do the work through me. So, I take over, and start generating what I think should happen. I miss the moment of opportunity to allow Spirit to work though me.
This is what I can no longer stomach. This is what no longer works. Choosing fear when I can choose love. Every time, I make this choice, it only limits what I create and actually takes it out of alignment with divine source.
This is what I wrote after the class:
Marianne said, "God is doing the work through you - it is not generated by you." That opened up something for me. I think that I always have to be the one generating and making it happen. It may be what I think it is alignment with God's will, but still, I do the generating. This is where I separate from God, out a lot of pressure on my body, and don't trust. Wow! And I imagine, that this may be where I separate from my body, don't trust or like it, judge it, and feel like I have to work really hard to do anything, including lose weight, exercise, and not feel shame. What if it really is all about "going for God" and releasing the separation?!!! And knowing that I can send God ahead of me!
I am wondering if this is the same moment I separate from the flow of wealth and abundance in the Universe and the Earth…
Any where and everywhere that I feel that I have to be in charge and make it happen, generate the results I am looking for, am I willing to uncreate and destroy? Yes, I am. RWGBPPA9SB&B. That's the abbreviation for the clearing statement from www.accessconsciousness.com
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